Saturday, March 12, 2022

Psalm Prayers for March 12, 2022

 

Every day something in my Psalm prayers gives me a way to talk with God about something current in my life or world. Often more than one, and those often give me a way to explore my ambivalences in the paradoxes and ambiguities of life and Scripture. Today seemed particularly incisive, so I am sharing these in the hope they may help someone else discern God’s path through their day.

 

Psalm 12:5

“Because the poor are despoiled, because the needy groan, I will now rise up,” says the Lord; “I will place them in the safety for which they long.”

 

As I began my prayers with this, I cried out, “Hurry up God!” This seemed even more intense as I got to verse 7. “You, O Lord, will protect us; you will guard us from this generation forever.” Of course, I recognize these Psalms were written during specific times and situations in ancient Israel that are not identical to our context, yet, they do resonate with our deep human yearnings.

 

Psalm 42:5,11;43:5

Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise him, my help and my God.

 

Psalm 72 is attributed to Solomon and is the quintessential prayer for the king (and I would say for all in positions of public leadership). Read the whole Psalm for its central theme of the responsibility of the king (government) to bring justice to the poor, needy, and oppressed. It also has an international flavor. Yes, it may well reflect Solomon’s sense of his responsibility, and it certainly embodies messianic hopes, and I believe is a model for how Christians in our time can and should pray for and advocate with our leaders. Juxtaposed with today’s other Psalms and the distressing developments out of Ukraine, it seemed especially urgent and incisive.

 

Psalm 102:1-2

Hear my prayer, O Lord; let my cry come to you. Do not hide your face from me in the day of my distress. Incline your ear to me; answer me speedily in the day when I call.

 

This whole Psalm seems to capture so much of the anguish of ambivalence.

 

Psalm 132:15

I will abundantly bless its provisions; I will satisfy its poor with bread.

 

At the conclusion of this joyous song of gathering for communal worship (sung while ascending to the Temple in Jerusalem) is this affirmation of God’s priority on providing for the poor. I believe this is not only affirmation but mandate for us (as we grumble about our minor inconveniences and increased expenses) to pray together for the people suffering in Ukraine and elsewhere.

 

 

Monday, January 10, 2022

I Am Your Passing Guest

I paused for quite a while at Psalm 39 in my Psalm prayer cycle yesterday. 

Though not 100% consistent, I have refrained from commenting on or engaging in the social media wrangling over any number of issues that seem not only divisive  but irrational.  Sometimes I have tried to compose expressions of principles without directing them at specific persons or positions. Only rarely have they evoked intelligent dialog. I have been amazed how some folk whose opinions seem dramatically contrary to the principle I have tried to articulate take them as supporting views that I not only disagree with but find reprehensible. With some internal vacillation, I have often decided not to express my convictions. Though I have tried to write so as to prompt people to think rather than debate or affirm, I doubt many if any minds have been changed by reading what I have written.

So I identified with Psalm 39:1b-3. “‘I will keep a muzzle on my mouth as long as the wicked are in my presence.’ I was silent and still; I held my peace to no avail; my distress grew worse, my heart became hot within me. While I mused, the fire burned; then I spoke with my tongue.” Yes, I frequently recognized that “my distress grew worse.” Sometimes I wrote essays that I posted in my “Writing Workshop” blog without linking them to public social media, sometimes to get it out of my mind and I could move on having organized my thoughts, and sometimes with the thought of documenting my thoughts for comparison as events continued to unfold. 

I am very familiar with the large number of imprecatory (cursing) Psalms; 109 is perhaps the apex or nadir of that form. But that is not where the Psalmist goes here (attributed to David, but I am not going down that academic rabbit hole). Instead of invoking God’s anger and judgment on enemies and evil people, verses 4-5 focus on the Psalmist’s awareness of the brevity of his own life. “Lord, let me know my end, and what is the measure of my days; let me know how fleeting my life is. You have made my days a few handbreadths, and my lifetime is as nothing in your sight. Surely everyone stands as a mere breath.”

The awareness of how short life is turns the focus to the faithful grace of God in verses 7-8. “O Lord, what do I wait for? My hope is in you. Deliver me from all my transgressions.” Appealing to God for mercy, the Psalmist identifies as God’s “passing guest.” (v. 12) In contemplative traditions, meditating on one’s own mortality is a gateway to spiritual awareness and vigor. When contrasted with the beginning of the Psalm’s inner anguish at keeping silent in the face of injustice and hostility, embracing mortality enables relinquishing the pains of living into God’s hand.

For me this exercise is not an exegetical abstraction. It invites me to probe the realities of my own mortality at this point in my journey. Caring for Candy on her Alzheimer’s journey, now complicated with the impared mobility following surgery for her broken hip. But this is not about Candy’s spiritual vitality, which actually seems to be thriving, but about my awareness that I am not physically, mentally, emotionally, or spiritually able to handle or keep up caregiving by myself. Daughter-in-law Rachel has been picking up more and more of Candy’s daily care. I have hired a house cleaner to come in every other week. Yesterday she was here for 5 hours. She charges a flat rate that seems satisfactory to her and well worth it to me. I am in contact with the  county dementia resources office about other services that could help us.

Once Candy was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s and we knew the trajectory of this journey, my prayer has been to be strong enough, long enough to care for Candy all her days. I recognize that means enlisting other supports along the way. Rather frequently Candy expresses a concern about what would happen to her if I were to die first. As confident as I am that our sons and their wives will be sure she is well cared for, I too have anxiety about her outliving me.  Though it didn’t get as much attention as other things our family has been dealing with recently, my  surgery for a skin cancer on my neck is a tangible sign of the reality of my mortality and vulnerability. With Candy’s care as my priority, fretting about the broad issues of our times seems a distraction. Indeed, I am aware that I am God’s passing guest, mortal and finite and aging.

I am fascinated and nourished by the image or metaphor of being “God’s passing guest.” It is not only that my life is brief and my strength limited and waning, but that I am here by God’s loving, merciful hospitality. 


Friday, December 31, 2021

A Contrarian Perspective on New Year Observances



 I have commented elsewhere that I am not aware that New Year commemorates anything in particular. It is an essential convenience for bookkeepers and tax accountants. We have turned it into an excuse for excessive exuberance and the cultivation of a false hope that somehow passing the date will interrupt the essential continuity of life. The seeds of 2022 were not just sown in 2021, but in 2020, 2016, 1860, 1776. 1492, and 346. Add years that seem significant to you while thinking about the ones I selected. Nothing magic there, just years whose seeds are still growing among us.

To be sure the last few years (not just two) have been particularly stressful in the US and even the world, but I am reminded of the line from the song "The Great Mandella" (1995 Peter, Paul and Mary). "It's been going on for ten thousand years." But I would suggest that 2022 will only be better if we think, talk, and work better together. I am afraid that wallowing in moaning about 2021 will only contaminate 2022. Yes, a hard time, but for those reading this (who have the luxury of a computer and internet connection) cultivating thanksgiving will grow more positive fruit in 2022.
1 Thessalonians 5.18: "Give thanks in all circumstances."
Psalm 50:14 "Offer to God a sacrifice of thanksgiving,"

Thursday, December 30, 2021

Kneeling Before the Mystery


 

"I have said for many years that as one who aspires to follow Jesus, I do not identify myself as either liberal or conservative, not as moderate either. I don't find that continuum to be at all helpful in understanding how I want to relate to living in reality. In his meditation today, I resonated with how Fr. Richard Rohr described it. 'The contemporary choice offered most of us living in the West is between unstable correctness (liberals) and stable illusion (conservatives)!' I do resonate with the alternative he proposes in today's meditation: 'Kneeling Before the Mystery.' I hope some of you will read it at: https://cac.org/kneeling-before-the-mystery-2021-12-27/..."

Friday, December 24, 2021

People of the Lie in Psalm 144:8 and the 2020 Election and January 6 Storming of the US Capitol

When I came to Psalm 144:8 in my Psalm prayer cycle this morning, I had a conversation with God about the emerging information and incompatible versions of the 2020 election and the storming of the US Capitol on January 6. The Psalmist invokes God’s judgment on those “whose mouths speak lies, who right hands are false.” That conversation took me back several years to reading M. Scott Peck’s 1983 book “The People of the Lie.” He wrote how from his psychiatric practice he came to distinguish between those who were “sick” (mentally ill) and those who were “evil” (purposely and knowingly doing or saying what they themselves knew was wrong). I asked God not only how I could distinguish between those whose words and actions (about the election and January 6) were “sick” (e.g. delusional) and “evil” (knowing what they were saying was untrue), but also what would be an appropriate, Christ-like response to the “sick” and to the “evil.” 

Saturday, November 20, 2021

Vigilantes and Self-Defense

I am not going to add my comments to the Rittenhouse or Arbery trials (interesting that one is identified by the defendant and the other by the victim – perhaps, at least in part because one has a single defendant and the other a single victim). I have not been in either courtroom, and plenty of other people are speaking and writing their reactions. No one needs yet another voice in that cacophony.  Rather, I have been pondering how both of these trials have raised the issue of vigilante justice. Some cheering for those who are refusing to accept what they find objectionable by taking direct action, maybe even curtailing public demonstrations and protests. Others warning of the danger of the loss of due process by runaway violence empowered by firearms that infringe on the rights of speech and peaceable assembly. Are vigilantes heroes or villains?

I remember the TV westerns of my growing up years in the 50s and 60s. Vigilantes were celebrated when established law enforcement was absent or corrupt. Their independence from political and bureaucratic control was welcomed by ordinary people. I know there are more, but these came quickly to mind for me: the Lone Ranger, the Cisco Kid, Zorro, Paladin. I am not suggesting that this sort of folk lore validates vigilante justice, only that it has a long cherished history. In more modern settings private investigators and even lawyers are cast a models of vigilante justice: Perry Mason, Mannix, Magnum. Super heroes such as Superman and Batman are vigilantes working out justice outside of the system when it seems powerless. On the other side, lynch mobs may think of themselves as vigilantes for their own perception of justice.

I am suspecting that the contrasting reactions to vigilanteism that these two trials have brought into public discourse are another indication that the divisions in the US are much deeper than contrasting political opinions, but reflect disconnected, incongruous realities in which people operate which are not amenable to debate or discussion. They do not share a common vocabulary necessary for communication. Neither can grasp how those in the other reality can reasonably embrace not only their opinions but their entire ethos.

As these thoughts have been rumbling around in my mind today, I have wondered whether attitudes toward vigilanteism figures into responses to things such as “good guy with a gun” and the events of January 6.

These two trials are also bringing the right of “self-defense” into public discourse. Much of that seems to focus on celebrating the right of individuals to defend themselves with deadly force. On the other side are those who are questioning the legal and ethical boundaries of “self-defense.” Our human propensity for rationalization and self-justification makes this elusive. Generally, acting in “self-defense” is an emotional response to feeling threatened. While the emotions are very real and very strong, they may not always match objective reality. When firearms are involved, snap miscalculations can bring tragic results and injustices.

Again, my concern is far broader than these two court cases, though they have prompted what I hope can be a constructive public discourse. “Self-defense” depends on both legal and social consensus to prevent runaway violence. The Mosaic Code that provided “eye for eye and tooth for tooth” sets limits on revenge and prevents hopelessly escalating violence. Similarly, it provided “cities of refuge” where someone who was being pursued after an intentional or accidental killing to have a safe haven until justice could be discerned. I mention these things to be clear that I am not advocating eliminating the legal right of “self-defense” but suggesting it needs a better understanding.

I put “self-defense” in quotes because while I believe it is legitimate and important in a civil society, as one who aspires to follow Jesus, my personal ethic is quite different. I recognize that my perspective is radically counter-cultural. I do not expect the society as a whole to adopt it. I recognize as well that many Christians do not share my views. I am not questioning their faith or discipleship. This is a case of what Paul wrote in Romans 14:5, “Let all be fully convinced in their own minds” while not judging others who take a different view. I would add as well that I do not expect the culture as a whole to adopt the sort of ethic Jesus taught, such as in the Sermon on the Mount (Matthew 5-7), but I believe we who claim Jesus as Lord can live out following Jesus in such a way that it offers an attractive, viable alternative to people who are frustrated with and oppressed by the dominant society.

So with that lengthy introduction and perhaps disclaimer, I want to be clear that I have serious reservations about lethal force for “self-defense” as one who is intentional, albeit imperfect, about following Jesus. In John 18:36 Jesus said to Pilate, “If my kingdom were from this world, my followers would be fighting to keep me from being handed over to the Jews.” From the cross, Jesus prayed for those who executed him, “Father, forgive them; for they do not know what they are doing.” (Luke 23:34) Stephen echoed this when he was being stoned, “Lord, do not hold this sin against them.” (Acts 7:60) At this point, I am not going to offer a comprehensive explication of my personal rejection of lethal force for “self-defense,” but suggest that the Hebrew prophets saw a precursor of this ethic, such as Isaiah 53:7, “he did not open his mouth; like a lamb that is led to the slaughter, and like a sheep that before its shearers is silent, so he did not open his mouth.”

I am not going to judge or even argue with those who disagree with what I am fully convinced of. I intend only to bear witness to my feeble, faltering efforts to follow Jesus as faithfully as I can. For me, this an matter of both faith and discernment. What sort of “self-defense” is legitimate stopping short of lethal force? What risk of faith might I need to take to defend someone who is being attacked?

Sunday, November 14, 2021

Hannah's Story - lectio divina reflections

 This week I have been reflecting on Hannah's story in 1 Samuel 1,2, and Elkanah's words to Hannah in verse 8 have been bothering me. "Am I not worth more to you than ten sons?" The text does not say how Hannah responded, and maybe she didn't. But the very next thing recorded is that Hannah was deeply destressed and weeping bitterly (v. 10). Whether she said anything or not, I can imagine Hannah thinking, "If you love and value me so much, why do you keep having sex with Peninnah so she can keep having babies with which to taunt me?"

As I came to Hannah's story in today's lectio divina, The second step (Meditatio) ask how I identify with any of the characters in the text. This is so much Hannah's story that identifying with her seems natural, which is what I supposed prompted my reflections on 1 Samuel 1:8 that I wrote on Thursday. Today I recognized another awareness has been emerging through the week in response to "In due time Hannah conceived" (v. 20). 

This brought me to consider verse 18 which says that after her conversation with Eli, she returned to her quarters to eat and drink and was no longer sad. Not all ancient manuscripts include "with her husband." Verse 19 suggests that Elkanah "knew" (a common shorthand for had sex) Hannah when they returned home to Ramah (which isn't to say they were not intimate in Shiloh). I actually rather like including "with her husband" while still in Shiloh linked with no longer being sad, imaging that they took the necessary step for fulfilling Hannah's prayer immediately before returning home. 

The line in verse 20 "in due time;" however, suggests to me that Samuel was not conceived in Shiloh but after they had been back in Ramah for a while. Even though Eli's assurance to Hannah were not specific and may have been a generically pastoral response, She took them as assurance that God would answer her prayer. So I have been wondering, how long was "in due time," and how did Hannah's faith fare as she waited? 

I have really been probing the dynamics of the story from Hannah's perspective, but am prompted to consider what assurances God gives when I am struggling and how does my faith fare when waiting for "due time?"

I am very aware that polygamy was practiced, often without moral comment, in the Old Testament. However, as in this incident, the pains that come with it are clear, but I am not suggesting this is some sort of moral regulation for modern marriage practices, one way or another. I am mostly interested here in the realities of human relationships and living in faith.